Thursday, February 24, 2011

Clarity





I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain
I think I live my life in a fog of doubt, pain, fear and insecurity. I wrap my fog with thin rays of confident sunshine hoping that no one realizes what lies behind. A gentle breeze of flowery words and a picturesque hillside of accomplishments serve as a distraction. I take comfort in the strength of numbers, knowing that the more I surround myself with you, the less you see me. And that's exactly what I want.

But I have moments in my life where I see me. No fog, no sun. Calm stillness. It is in these moments that I don't need your presence to validate me. I don't need my distractions to conceal me. In these brief and fleeting moments, I find clarity.

I just want to sit in this moment for as long as I can.

Day 6: Necessities

Having a Full Tank of Gas

despite...


~M~

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day 3, 4, and 5

Day 3: Shedding Inhibtions

"I lie when I say I don't care what you think.
I breathe insecurity and I want you to like me.
... But lately, I'd just rather like myself.
So today, I'm shedding my inhibitions. And I love it."
--Me
Day 4: Facebook Friends

I used to ignore friend requests from people that weren't my friends. I used to not respond to comments on people's pages from people I didn't know. That is until I discovered that there's a world out there outside of my little bubble and media networks such as facebook give me an access code. I have met and interacted with people just like me that I'd have never known if not for the social networks, and I must say... I love my facebook friends.


Day 5: My job

Sure, I hate coming in. I always complain when 3:30 hits because I'm that much closer to having to stop whatever I'm doing and head off to work. But when I get here, the people in the building wrap me in a cocoon of acceptance. I get to goof off, watch tv shows and relax. And most of all, I LOVE getting paid.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Day 2: Friends

The family that you choose.

That's what I consider friends to be. If you don't have at least 1 good friend in your life, then it's meaningless. Okay, so I'm exaggerating a bit BUT honestly. I see so much energy being invested into temporal thing of little value. True friendship is hard to come by and we need to cherish these relationships.

I spent my day yesterday with some of the must amazing people in the world. I think I'll keep them :)

~M~
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Saturday, February 19, 2011

Day 1: The little things

I dunno why but I love the laundromat. The whirring of the machine, and the sweet aroma in the air. It smells... Well clean. Clink, cling... Someone's making change. I sit, hypnotized by the kaleidoscope of colors in front of me. The texture of my environment amazes me. And best of all, when I leave, all my clothes are clean. :)

Oh yeah and I found $20 in one of my loads
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Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Learn from my mistake

You're familiar with it.

Two cars on the side of the road. In the front car the drivers face is buried in his palm, the rear car boasts colorful flashing lights... Red and blue to be exact.

Yep. Someone got pulled over.

anytime I pass someone who had been pulled over, two things cross my mind. The first is, what was that person doing that landed them in this position. The second is me hoping that I'm not doing the same thing OR something else that can get me pulled over. I instantly get more cautious and aware of my surroundings and of what I'm doing.

That same mentality can be applied to life. If you see someone in a precarious situation... Pulled over on the side if the road if you will... Don't just act oblivious. You may be able to learn from their mistakes
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